Hey guys!  I'm so happy it's Saturday. 

I need to be working on a final project for classes, and studying, but I just feel like being lazy.

Well, not much to talk about, hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Hey guys!  No finals today, but I had to work at the daycare this morning, and I'm at the clinic this afternoon.  I need to get a shower and blow out my hair so I look decent.

The hubby and I went out to the movies and saw Silent Hill last night.  It was pretty good.  I didn't like the ending though.  I love scary movies! 

Amazingly, both Emma and Charlie are feeling great today!  It seems to have been one thing after another with them lately, but they're doing great now.  It's such a nice day here, sunny and not too hot or cold.  I really wish I had time to take them for a walk, but I don't have time to do that and get ready for my next job too.

Well guys, I'm gonna comment now.  Not much else to update on.  Luv ya!

Hey guys.  Free day today!  Yay. 

I've been cleaing the house and reading my book.  I had to take Miss Emma to the vet too, she decided to get sick on me.  I woke up to diarrhea all over the house this morning.  Fun stuff.  I definately have to mop today.  Good thing we have all wood floors.

Here's another pic of the dogs on their new bed.  They're so cute.

I checked out Livejournal today and wasn't very impressed at all.  Xanga is the best out there I think. 

Well, don't have much else to say other than I'm feeling like a fat-ass.  I feel huge today.  Period is coming on.  But that doesn't excuse the fact that I've been eating like a pig for like a week or so now.  I've probably gained back the entire 30 lbs I lost already.

Off to comment, have a good day everyone!

Hello everyone, sorry I took so long to write today, it's been a long one.  I had work from 7a-10:30a, trigonometry final 12:30p-2:30p, and work at my other job 2:30p-7p.  12 hour day.  Yuck.

Had to get little Emma some valium today, it's been storming here and I quickly realized that she is deathly scared of storms.  She freaked out and tried to run away when I took her out to potty, then hid under the bed for several hours.  The vet I work for told me today that it only gets worse as they age.  Great.  She's already 4-5 yrs. old. 

Well, I got the pups a new bed today.  Emma loves it, it's so sweet.  She's laying on it now.  Charlie still likes to lay on the back of my chair. 

Charlie on the pups new bed.

Emma

Emma napping in the living room.

I have completely screwed up on cals for like the past week.  I'm scared to even get on the scale... I'm just not going to worry until after finals.  I'm weird, when I focus on something for real that's about all I pay attention to.  Here's my new goal... I want to be 125 by June 15.  That gives me a month and a half to lose 15 lbs.  6 weeks... so a little over 2 lbs a week, very doable.  Then maybe 110 by August 1?  That's 30lbs this summer.  Then when I reappear at school, I'll be tiny!

I'd really like to go see a movie with my husband tonight, but I doubt he'll go for it.  He's kind of a recluse.  I want to see Silent Hill SOOOOOO bad.  I love scary movies, and it looks super scary. 

Well I think my Trig test went well today.   I studied all day yesterday.  My grades are tenuous this semester, I could have all A's, I could have A's and B's... we'll just have to see.

Well girlies I'm gonna comment now.  Luv ya!

SOOOO.... I'm having a decent day today.  I have a lot of stuff to do though.  I have to drop the pups off at daycare, go to the bank, take my husband some money, go to the store, come home and move everything out of the closets and aways from the walls for the bug man to come spray, and study study study!!  I've actually been up since 6:30 even though I didn't have to.

Well, I'm going to start my errands now, I'll update later.  <3

Why can I not keep female friends?  Why?  Every time I make a friend and start to think of them as a real friend and rely on them, they turn into super bitch. 

Yuck.  Stress/anger induced binge this weekend, continuing into today.  I'm such a fat-ass.

Tomorrow is dead day, and I really need to study for my trigonometry final, but I have to get the house ready to be sprayed for brown recluses (found a HUGE one in the kitchen the other day, yuck.)  I have to make a 93% on my final to keep my A.  I hate finals. 

I need to write another paper too, do an online quiz, have an online final, and take my digestive phys final next week.  I'll be SOOOOO glad when all this is over.  I also have like a million bills I need to pay.  Responsibility sucks.

Well, luv to all my girls out there, good luck to those of you with finals, hope all is well.  *muah*

  Rough day, worked a lot.  Ate a lot.  Don't want to talk about it.

Probably one of the worst days in a long time as far as work goes:  was yelled at, then cried.

I'll write more tomorrow, promise.

<3

Hello guys.  So I think I just blew a test.  I want to care, but I really don't.  I just want this semester to be over.  I'm ready for summer, and hopefully by swimming season I'll have a beautiful beach goddess body.

I'm really excited, my best friend is moving a block over, and we'll be able to walk and run a lot.  Walking burns just as many cals as jogging, and it's better for your knees, and I'll get to gossip a lot and get the pups out of the house.

I've been feeling very hungry today.  Not sure why. 

I have to work in about an hour, until 7 tonight, and then from 7a-7p tomorrow.  Yay.  Not. 

So anyways, I taught Emma to sit yesterday, I was so proud of her.  She learns quickly.  She's so cute.  She's laying on the couch snoring right now.  She's really coming out of her shell.

Argh I just want it to be summer already.  I'm so so so sick of worrying about classes.

Well, hope everyone has a great weekend!  Weekends are awesome.  Happy Friday!

Hey guys.  I'm back today!  From now on, all intake will be in protected entries.  Because I'm paranoid. 

I'm doing so so well today!  I slept in a lot, Lack of sleep always makes me do badly at everything.  I slept from 10pm last night to 11 am this morning... 13 hours.  That's a lot.  But I get so worn down with the two jobs, classes, studying, cleaning house, cooking, laundry, paying bills, taking care of the dogs, running errands, etc.....  

My best friends birthday is tomorrow and she's all depressed.  She'll be 29.  She's really upset, I need to get her something nice.  Maybe a mani and pedi and facial from the spa downtown. 

Ok guys, I'm gonna get dressed and run some errands now.

You guys make me happy.    Your comments are really encourging.  Just so ya know. 

Messed up again today.  I started out better, I did stop by McDonalds for my morning coffee and got only a hash brown, no biscuit, which is 140 cals.  But then I started craving ice cream.  Bad bad bad.  I craved it and craved it and finally got some.  Now I'm tempted to purge.  I'm afraid if I get started on that I won't be able to stop.

So no more food today. 

I don't know what's wrong with me lately, I was doing so well.  I lost 30 lbs, that's a lot!  Why did I stop?  I think all the cravings may be because I've been forgetting my vitamins.  That and the stress from the end of the semester.  I need to get back into a routine.  I'll plan that now actually...

Sarah's Daily Plan

B:  coffee, no sweetner, vitamin  (0 cals)
S:  some type of fruit  (50-100 cals)
L:  soup and crackers, or salad  (100-150 cals)
D:  lean cuisine, cous cous, or salad  (2-300 cals)

total:  should be somewhere from 350-550 cals

I have to have my coffee in the morning, which is what leads me by McDonalds, the only thing between my house and my job.  I need to make my own coffee in the mornings, and that would help a lot.  I really want to do this.  I love hearing people say I look thinner, and that's happening more lately.  I don't want to gain all that weight back.

I hope everyone is doing well, and having a good day! 

Has anyone seen Xanga's new proposed flags?  They're going to start flagging and shutting down proana sites.  I wouldn't say I was proana, but I do like to be able to discuss my eating habits with people who struggle with the same thing, ya know?  It seems so discriminatory, if I wrote on a different psycological problem such as depression or obsessive compulsive disorder (both of which I have struggled and still struggle with) would I still be discriminated against.  Ridiculous.